good is good. sounds familiar? maybe not now. i bet someone out there in SAJC is using " our language ". geesh, copyrighted eh! just went to friendster and i realised that those people are really excited about their jc life. and they would like to print the " XXXXXXX junior college name ". maybe i should print mine too, nahs. i have better things to do. it seems to me that many of those who went jc had their friends in friendster doubled? tripled? hahaha. suddenly you know so many people. wah, sounds incredible.
this week have been pretty tiring. im gonna stop thinking about studies for a while? yepps. its pretty stressful in the sense that you have a switch in the change of lifestyle. sometime i just hope time passes faster, somehow im a little sick of this place. cause im homesick! today during the math182 class, i sat beside this taiwan girl. geesh, shes so lucky to have a family here. she can celebrate her chinese new year with her parents! i can't. sobs. even my dumb brother celebrated chinese new year with us when he went aussie to study. how unfair!
oh wells. i guess life is just like this. yesterday, as in monday was a tiring day. i had like 10 chunky campbell soup with me that i bought with offer. fuck man, i carried it home walking upslope. damn tiring, almost died carrying it. haha kidding. but its heavy. i missed the bus and my roommate wasnt' very helpful. i think hes rude at times, tsktsk. oh wells, nvm.
i got my classes added too. so i have 19 units, but still i have headaches about it. i sure suck at this. now its like, if i dn get into UC bekerley, then im dead. that kinda stuff, i will study hard. i just did 3 essays, and i almost died doing it. the history here, wah fuckshit. in singapore i have 2 books for 2 years. but now i have 4 books for 5 months. doesnt make sense right! hahaha. and i have to do self reading , which i hate to. anyhow i got a printer from frys departmental store. its the store name anyhow, got it at $50.when i opened up, found out that FUCK, THEY DN SUPPLY USB CABLE. so how? i stole, HAHAHA i mean i borrowed , i used and i placed it back. not good ah. bad thing to right, but oh wells. no choice, i need to print.
i feel alot better now after watching gundam seed destiny. really, watching such shows makes me feel less stress. but too bad everyweek only comes one, and i think it will only be shown for like 50 episode. so perhaps by this end of year the show is gonna end. i mean the songs are really nice and the plot is like GREAT. i will die if i don't watch. ahaha not that serious, but yepps. hearing the songs alone makes me think a lot. ( though i don't understand cause its in jap ). whatever, call me dumb. i just like the songs.
geesh its 2.39 now. i dont know what to type anyore. tmr i have school till 7. wednesday and thursday is the worst day of the week. somehow i forgot what i wanna blog. im just too excited about gundam seed destiny. if theres really a gundam for me to pilot, i will go master the thing. ok im crap. i feel happier this time when im blogging. i remember those time when i blog, i would be feeling pretty much like shit. oh ya, i remember now, im gonna post my blog entries that i typed when i had no internet.
if you don't wanna read it. u may leave now, its pretty draggy.
Im typing for the entry for the blog now. Haha on the plane! Using Microsoft word. Sounds weird I know but yea. I wanna write down before I forget everything. So I will paste this entry into the blog once I have internet access.
Today I flew. Gees. First day only and trouble is on my way. When I reached hongkong I lost my dumb boarding pass for transits! End up I need special assistance when I am there. Luckily this helpful hongkong (HAS) staff helped me anyway. Really nice of her, we chatted a bit. Haha.
Was issued some immigration form that I was supposed to fill up. There was this part where I am suppose to put my address! And you know something! I lost the DARN address. HAHAHA. How smart can I be, tell me! I feel so damn dead! So I think, I will prolly use my school address. I hope I don’t get in trouble for that. I heard that there are actually interrogations in the customs! I hope they don’t make trouble for me and I will be happy! Also when the driver is going to pick me up later, I wonder if he needs my address! Goodness. If he wants, I am dead! Cause I don’t know the ADDRESS AT ALL! Oh no! isn’t this bad! Hahaha. I just hope things go well. Really… this time you guys really gotta pray for me. Hahaha, by the time you all praying I have already touch down!
Everyone in this plane is nearly asleep. Its dark now and I use my IBM THINK LIGHT! Hahaha. Now I know why it is useful already! Its 1.07am now (Singapore time), 8 hrs 17mins to destination. Man that’s long! Local time at the current position I am in which is near Tokyo, at the pacific ocean, is 2.08am. the plane is cruising at a speed of 1172 km/h. if you don’t think that’s fast, the fastest car in the world tops out at 350 + hahaha! We are also like 10km high up the sky! That’s pretty high isn’t it. 8448 km more to the states. Singapore is only 42km by the way. Im tired. I was looking out at the window just now, the sky were filled up with STARS. Goodness, its really beautiful. It feels as if you can grab them. So near and nice, beautiful, splendid!
I really don’t know how to say how I am feeling now. But taking long flights like this is really sickening, the tailwind of 200km/h+ is helps the plane in moving faster, reducing the flight time by 10 mins. When I was in Indonesia, going back to Singapore seemed so easy. Just board that plane and soon you will reach Singapore. Then you just take a cab that will reach home in about 20 mins time. How convenience! Now is like when I come back I have to endure this journey. Horrendous isn’t it!
I gotta say thanks to those who came to send me off. Though not a lot but I really appreciate it. Thanks for your card germaine, and thanks for your bottle genim. And genim, its really MAFUN to take ure stuff. So big I cant even stuff it in the darn bag. I wanted to throw away until I saw the photo inside. Haha so im wondering whether to throw not. Hahaha then I keep the stars, better that way right! And zihui, sorry for making you pon class. Hahaha! And joyce you look pretty in the skirt! Ure so fair! Like Japanese! Germaine too. Thanks! Ewen thanks for coming, it really consoles me, at least ONE of my closest friend came to send me off. I don’t know where the other one went. SO DISAPPOINTING. The whole plane now is pitch dark except for me laptop! Hahaha. Everyone is sleeping I guess. I got so many things to carry and things to worry. Man, I am sure like what my mum said. FORGETFUL LAZY AND “ LECEH! “.
I don’t know why suddenly, I miss my family. Its just a different feeling taking the plane. I am all alone, I never took the plane alone in my life before. Needless to say abroad. Its like knowing that this trip would be long, not like those typical trips to Thailand, Singapore or m’sia! Those that can reach home in a matter of 2 hours. From Singapore, I am traveling to the furthest I can go. Cross the world’s biggest ocean. By the way, its really fcking big. So bug I am getting freaked out! Hahaha. I know it sounds stupid but I doubt anyone can swim the pacific ocean.
Mum, I know you wouldn’t be reading this, cause you are a compute idiot. Bit I just want to say that I love you and I miss you. I really wished I can stick to you just like a little kid. Like a baby. It really feels great to stick with you. I feel like tearing now. this kind of feeling, don’t know how to explain. Not very happy nor very sad. Its just a mixed up feeling between fear and excitement. You know, even the hongkong lady who assisted me said , WAH! YOU ARE 16 only? Man. Maybe im a little too young to travel? Haha but I am going to treasure this chance. Its do or die, if I don’t get in the good schools, I will prolly jump into the sea. I cant seem to type finish. There are so many things to say, too bad even devices like phone can’t be used. I wish I can tell my story to everyone out there to listen.
I guess the only thing I can do is to ask god to protect my mother. And myself. And my friends.. I really miss you people, mum too )):
Super ultra duper sadden, that we are separated by the ocean.
time. I just realized I am home sick. This kind of feeling, that I never had before. I miss you mum. This is my second entry im typing using microsoft word. I am finally at the host family. Its 2.03 am now, America
I am bloggin like nobody business again. But again its on Microsoft word. My host family went out, and I am left with haleem. Haleem is my roommate, rather housemate. He stays in the house and he is moving out really soon, perhaps on the 15th or perhaps at the end of the month. That would mean that I would be alone. Sad isn’t it. Cereals for breakfast. I miss mum cooking. Those who don’t really appreciate what your mum cook should really go and die. Its 1.13 pm now , which means Singapore is around 5.13 am. Everyone should be sleeping soundly like a pig. I really wonder when can I ever have a internet access. I am really homesick now, I really miss home! Be it Indonesia or Singapore, im so not used to America. Things are really dirt expensive. I never seen anything so expensive before. A phone call is like 50cents US, that’s like $1 sing. Just for a phone call. Everything is really expensive here. Can die buying things. I mean it. Im gonna save lotsa money here. Its not like in Singapore. What the hell man. I am still stuck here at home though, cant go out. I wonder when they will be back. I have orientation on Monday. I shall make more friends and discuss about living with them. I mean its ok to live with a host family, but after all there would be someone looking after you. As in looking after , you know. Not the nice way. Hahaha. It’s the “ look after their properties”.
I hope to move out soon, perhaps by March? I shall stay for 2 months here or something. So by the end of this month I will tell them I will move out in march, so as to get my deposit back. Haleem says, perhaps I am not use to America or something. He said if I get use to it, I will love the place here. Which I doubt so. Actually doesn’t matter, I just need my friends to be here or something. But it sounds impossible right? I wish my family can stsy here too. That’s would be good. Its raining now by the way, and the temperature is really cold. The temperature at home is 19.5 Celsius. Outside is around 10 or below perhaps. That’s really cold. Froze my heart too. I can’t wait to go back Singapore now. sometime I wonder if I should ever come here in the first place. Though a lot of Indonesians are here. But ya, I am too Singaporean. LOL. I really have to accept the fact that Singapore is a nice place. Just that the attitude of some people there really KNSED. As for the Americans here, I am not that sure either.
My holidays are in JUNE! I heard that the holidays here , they call it the summer vacation, is like around 2- 3 month. I can choose to study or go back to Singapore. I don’t know yet. I really need to see what my mum says. I wanna go back. I really wished America was like Indonesia, then I could just take a darn plane home. Tickets are cheap, and the distance is near. Thus traveling time is short. Haii. A home sick freak like me is gonna die soon. I hope to make more friends , and my looks won’t scare the people away. Its better to know more people here. Haleem told me that the place he is staying is opposite the school, and many indos are there. Like a little Indonesia town. Good right? I wished I can drive. You have no idea how fucking expensive is it here to even TAKE A BUS. Its like $2.50 sing to take a fucking bus. Hello? You heard that right. Its crazy, its really better to get a car here, then to take public transport. This is mad. The bus service stops at 6, and the frequencies is so little, you gonna be STUCK at home. How about that. I am like isolated from the world. In this little town called pleasant hill.
It seems my days in the states are not as good as it seems. I am jealous of you , Singaporeans, to have a place call home. Nothing beats the warmth of your family and friends. I don’t know when can I get an internet connection. Perhaps soon, I will move out and find a place to stay. But it ain’t cheap either. No food no nothing. Just a apartment for 1 person cost USD 1000. so if you split, it will cost USD 500. no food no nothing, at least here 650 USD cover food and electricity bills. Man I wan a cheap place to stay with internet connection.
I better get a phone line soon, I can’t contact my mum. That’s really hard. My mum should be awake anytime soon, since its 5.35. my mum should wake up really really soon. Poor mum, wakes up so early and sleep so late. =(
I am really sad =((
alrighty, its done. LOL its naggy. i agreeed, but yepps. i shall sleep now while listening to my seeddestiny songs. really brighten ure days up. the songs are motivative, ya ya as if. it sounded like! but its in jap. so oh well.
